Life at Stalemate, Again!!!

Imagine a situation where you are walking in a crowded area, and suddenly you slip and fall down on the earth. You somehow manage to get up again on your own, look at the staring people at you, ignore them, and start walking again. You just walked few steps more and what the hell, you slip and fall again! You smile again, get up and behave as if everything is normal. The walking process continues. Another few steps ahead and the event repeat again. Now you would have got frustrated by this time and call it a bad day!

Yes, sometimes, in our life, we see many such bad days. But these bad days are nothing but our testing times. These are the days which tests our real patience, our confidence, our courage, ourselves. And the one who is able to have a laugh at the end of such day, is the real human being.

I’ve been facing such situations at regular period of time, right from my school days. The past week has thrown me in the flashback of memories. All those feelings of failure, dejection, rejection, frustration etc are again on my mind. It’s really a tough time for me. But I’m really happy that there are some people giving me strength to fight back with the situation. I’m really thankful to them. Thankful to my parents, to my (real) friends, and thankful to the almighty.

Everything was going smooth till the declaration of our reappear results for third semester. I cleared one of my backlogs. It was such a nice feeling. Now it was almost confirmed that I’ll get my degree. I was so happy. But wait, the very next day, the results for the seventh semester were declared. And what the hell, I got another backlog in that subject which I did well. I was shocked, surprised, speechless, worried, disheartened, and almost blank. But it took just a couple of minutes to recover. Again, my degree was on the stake. The next day I went to confirm the criteria to get the degree where I was told that I’m eligible for it. I was happy again... Same like getting up and walking after slipping and falling down. But as the days passed, what I got to know was that I’m still ineligible for the degree, and those strange feeling started floating across my mind again. Should I call it a bad day?

When I look at the lessons of my favorite epic, the Mahabharata, I console myself by saying: “Karmanye waadhikaraste, maa faleshu kadachana”. Just do you work without worrying about the results. Leave something for the God to do. Whatever has to happen, will be for my wellness only. But what could be good behind my failure? How it is going to be in my favor in the future? What I have to do now? What can I do now? Now I feel that my life is at that stage similar to one in the game of chess. When your opponent makes such a move that you are safe. But any further move from your side will land you in a checkmate. While playing the game, when I face this situation, a message box pops up and says: “Stalemate, the game is a draw”. Yes, the game is a draw. The game of my life, where I can’t make any move further.