A Strange Feeling...

The countdown has begun. The time is passing by. Year 2008 is about to end and 2009 is going to start in a couple of days. So, I wish you all a Happy New Year in advance...

But along with this passing year, our seventh semester comes to an end and year 2009 starts our eight semester, the final semester. Cannot believe the time went by so fast. The memories of our third semester are still fresh in my mind. The first day in the college, the counseling sessions, the first lecture, the first lab, seems that everything happened just yesterday. I still remember the difficulties I faced while joining the college. The atmosphere of the college was entirely different from my polytechnic college. And choosing Information Technology in B.Tech was a total flip of disciple after studying diploma in Electrical and Electronics Engineering. I knew I can't do much in the third semester. So, I took my own time to settle down. And the time when I got settled, we had our end term exams. The result, I got back in three subjects. I was not at all surprised. But it was really saddening as I never failed in exams. But only failures teach you the taste of success. After the failure of the third semester, I balanced myself and got control over my studies. The result, fair score in the fourth semester and so on. And now, while giving seventh semester exams, I was so relaxed that I could listen to songs before entering the exam hall.

But even if the third semester was a failure, I consider it as my most successful part of my life where I got to meet a few good people whom I can call as my friend. They are still my best pals from the day I got to know them. The journey till now in the college also helped me to establish myself as an individual who has his own identity. Else I would have been still a nerd. A couple of events, Technocratz and Virus 2k8 gave me recognization. Now I feel myself very comfortable in the college with limited, but precious friends. We spend a lot of time together, playing, laughing, fighting, eating, etc... But it also made me to understand that everything that shines is not gold. It's nice to be an important person, but it's more important to be a nice person.

Now, when this year is about to end, the last semester of my college life begins. The time will pass out quickly. The semester will come to end before we can enjoy it completely. Some friends will depart, some will stay in touch. Many of us will get busy in our lives. At that point of time, we will miss our college days. Today, I'm getting the same feelings as I got while entering in XII class. The last year full of freaky events, attitude, command, responsibilities, etc. and at last, farewell. The time for us to leave the college is coming. The time to enjoy it to maximum is coming. The time to know who your true friends are is coming. So, let's move forward and live the last semester of our college life. Who knows what the future has in its store for us... All the best.

Feeling Relaxed...

Finally, the exams are over... The mind is relieved. Now I can work upon the things which I thought during the exams like making music, sketching, wandering in the city, going to malls to see the new winter collection (city butterflies), trying to cook new dishes, work upon my fitness, and the endless list goes on, but the most important thing, update my blog.

But to do all these things, why should I wait for the exams to get over? Don't know why but I really was not worried about my exams. I spent much time in the kitchen cooking my favorite dishes and making music and song remixes during the exams too. I even posted my first blog after five months in this period only. Why the exams don't scare me? I still remember my school days when we used to drown ourselves in books a week before the exam date. But when we are in the college, we, or to be specific, I open the book only the evening before the exam date, sometimes, on the same day morning. I have my own way to study. I don't mug up things. That's like climbing Mt. Everest for me. If I was able to do that, I could have opted for Humanities stream. While attending my classes, I just pay attention to the concept behind that topic. And sometimes, I had already used that concept practically somewhere in my life. So it becomes easy for me to understand those things for me. Hence when the exams come, I just need to brush up those things. And I don't give exams to secure maximum, it's just to get enough marks so that I don't need to face any problem in future. It is the reason I get my marks in the range of 60-75%.

Well leaving all these things behind, it's time for me to enjoy the moment now and have a sound sleep. So friends, good night... (Hey it's 9:24 A.M only yaar... hehe...)

A little secret...

So, you may be wondering why I'm posting this blog at an unusual time, when my exams are on, and especially when the country is sleeping. The reason is, I've not posted any blog from past few months, and I have lot to share with you. I was told by a friend of mine, who also inspired me to get into this blogging business, to maintain a diary so that I can transform my thoughts into words. But poor girl, very little she knew that how much I hate to hold pen and paper and do that writing stuff. Well leaving all these nonsense behind, and focusing on the main aim to write this blog, I want to tell you a little truth of my life. I hope you would have felt the same at some point in your life, but may be in a different manner. I was watching TZP (Taare Zameen Par) a few minutes before. I exactly don't remember the last time when I cried, but I must admit, the movie was able to roll out a couple of tears through my eyes on certain occasions. I felt the pain through which the lead character of the movie was going through. But he got the right guidance form a right person. And he proved himself to the world on the basis of his main talent, painting. Hats off to him...

You may be asking why I'm telling you this. It's because now the truth, which I mentioned earlier, comes into picture. When I got promoted to secondary school from primary, everything went normal except one thing, the subject of Mathematics. I know this subject is like a migraine for many others too. From class VI onwards, I lost my interest in this subject which could be seen in my marks. This continued till class X. I somehow managed to get 55% in Mathematics board exams which allowed me to get into my favorite field, the field of science. My flop show in this subject continued in XI and XII too. Because of this, I couldn't get admission in B.Tech. The management quota required a extra payment of Rs. 2 Lakhs which we couldn't afford. But I was determined to get into the B.Tech. For that, I had to join a Polytechnic college and then I took Lateral entry to B.Tech IT. But what the hell, I got to study the damn subject here too. The only difference this time was that I couldn't manage to clear it like past and still suffering due to it. Although the digits or the symbols don't do dance or wobble in front of my eyes as in the movie, but I still find it hard to study them.

So that was my weakness, and I know, you too will be having your own sort of weakness. But wait, you might be possessing something special to you, for which you are known, for which you are proud. Although I have Mathematics as my weakness, I worked hard on science, my technical knowledge, especially computers, music, sketching, etc. But I'm known to others because of my skills in the computer field. And here is a secret… I'm very poor at it. I don't know coding. Hmmm, so you are thinking I'm lying. You are asking that how the hell I make such things like posters, websites and softwares. Here is the answer; it's all the hard work I do. Things don't come to me easily either. It takes a long for me to make them. I do all possible things to make them better. I love to make the codes as complex as I can. For that, I refer to e-books, Internet, etc. when I start any project, I don't feel relaxed till I finish it off. I put all my effort to make it perfect. The visual appeal is also as vital as the codes. I don't sleep in nights in order to complete them.

I consider these skills as a gift of god to me. It makes me to go places. And this is my talent. Just like painting was the talent of Ishant Awasthi in TZP. I'm sure that you will have a talent within you. Bring it out. Let the whole world see it, admire it, award it. It lets you to identify yourself in a crowd. So, go ahead, show the world what you can do. All the best...